recently, i keep
listening to mayday song, 第二人生, second round. i feel
the lyrics literally describe how i am living my life right now. what is my
second round? >_<
even though this song was released 2 years ago, their songs have the magical power to hit the hearts
of their listeners at different stages.
finally,
i completed my dream board! this had been nagging at the back of my mind, ever
since my mastermind group suggested creating our own dream board a few years
ago. that time, i did created one but it was not up to my satisfaction. i
attempted to redo for a few times after that but never got to complete, until
recently. a few months back, i was attending a master class, an extension of
the money & you programme which i took in april 2015. the 4-days
programme taught about a number of generalised principles, which were useful
and applicable to both personal and business aspects. the master class was
meant for the participants to apply the principles taught, through a series of
exercises. during one of the sessions, the trainer wanted us to create and
complete a personal project by the end of all the sessions. i immediately
thought of my incomplete dream board and decided to set this as my personal
project. this seemed quite achieveable within the next 5 weeks.
firstly,
i arranged to learn photoshop from jada after work (had wanted to learn this as
well), intending to use the software to create my dream board. in exchange, i
would teach her on excel, barter trading of our skill sets! she was
patient to teach me and shared that the important thing was to visualise what i
want in my dream board and create it into reality with photoshop. sounded
simple yet difficult.
the
most challenging part was to search for pictures which i could relate to and
able to represent who i am. i dived into looking though hundreds of pictures in
google, selecting the most appropriate pictures to put into my dream board.
with the photoshop skills i learnt and arranging the pictures in the best
manner, my dream board began to form. the final result turned out to be a
wonderful mix of my favorite colours of blue, yellow and brown, with each
picture carefully selected, of certain significance to me.
"be
free", of birds flying, a state i wanted to achieve, freedom in mind, body
and heart, living my life free of limitations and worries. i included a picture
of the still-incomplete sagrada familia church, located in barcelona,
spain. the church was designed by the late architect, antoni gaudi, which began
construction in 1882 and estimated to be completed in 2028. i was totally
amazed by the architecture and would want to personally see his masterpiece in
future. antoni gaudi had designed and built other great buildings such as park
guell and casa batllo. definitely looking forward to be immersed in his works.
i would want to see the original painting of the starry night by vincent van gogh
as well. the painting was currently located in museum of modern art,
new york city. there was a van gogh museum in amsterdam, netherlands, with the
largest collection of van gogh's paintings and drawings in the world. another
museum on my list to visit. i chose a meaningful quote by buckminister fuller,
which was shared during the money & you programme and i resonated with it.
i always only had a inkling feeling about my true purpose and the words,
"your significance will remain forever obscure to you..." just hit
me, like the hard truth being put right into my face. "fulfilling your
role if you apply yourself to converting your experiences to the highest
advantage of others.", something for me to chew on. i chose a photo of me
at poon hill in nepal, with the unforgettable mountain view and the sense
of peace i felt when i was there. sometimes, i would visualise myself at poon
hill, like my energy spot to recharge. the centre message of "when
was the last time you did something for the first time?" was to push
myself to keep stepping out of my comfort zone and do new things. coffee and
books would always be part of my life. the love balloon was to remind myself to
love myself, in every and any other way. lastly, i had to put a photo of
christina and me, a very dear friend close to my heart. she had been with me
through my ups and downs and always put a smile on my face whenever i recalled the
wonderful moments we had together.
i
was jokingly telling jada that my dream board was worth S$800 (the cost of the
master class). if not for the master class, i wondered when i would complete
it. all worth the effort!
today was 6 november 2013 and it was a perfect day. i decided to take a day off from work to celebrate my 33rd birthday this year. i had planned for a date with myself and waited in anticipation for the day to come.
that morning, i woke up feeling excited! after breakfast, i got busy trying out the dresses, tops and shoes which i recently bought from zalora. after working in zalora for more than a year, i finally shopped over the website. out of the 5 items i bought, i decided to keep 2 dresses, a black and a white, comfortable to wear and looked great on me. =p
around 10:30am, i changed into my pink top with jeans and headed out. i first went to h&m at ion to return a dress which did not turn out as flattering as i thought. there were some complications in the return process and i ended up with a return merchandise card of equivalent value to the price of the dress. i could use it to buy other items at h&m within the next 1 year.
after h&m, i travelled back to plaza singapura to catch a movie called “about time”, a romantic comedy film revolving around time travel, where a young man kept travelling back to his past to change for a better future. the movie was awesome, with great story line and cast. the essence of the movie was about love and being present to every single moment in our lives. i was touched by a few scenes and tears just burst out from my eyes. definitely one of the best movies i had watched this year.
i left plaza singapura and decided to walk over to liang court to have lunch at tamoya. i had been craving for their cold zaru udon and thought this would make a great birthday lunch to myself. as it was past lunch hour, the restaurant was rather empty. i ordered and sat down to enjoy my cold zaru udon. the tangy udon with the sauce, coupled with seaweed was heavenly, satisfying my taste buds! contented with lunch!
after lunch, i walked through clarke quay and took a bus to bugis street to shop around. there were many small fashion/shoes/accessories/food stalls and i was hopping to get some nice clothes or shoes. after shopping around for a while, i got hungry. as i was thinking where to grab a bite, i vaguely recalled a café along victoria street. thankfully, i did not have to walk too far to find the café, called artistry. the interior décor was simple, with a big communal table in the centre and chairs around, complemented by a couple of sofa seats at two sides. they had outdoor sitting area as well. i found out later that artistry served as a space for local and international emerging artists to hold their performances and exhibitions, thus explaining the artistic photographs hanged on the wall. i ordered a cup of flat white and sat at one end of the communal table, facing the counter. cafés had always been my choice to relax and be present with myself. the café ambience and the coffee, made it perfect for one to slow down and take a pause in life. as i sat there, i started to reflect and present to how much i had grown over the past 4 years. i became stronger and more at ease with myself, more patient and love myself more. most importantly, i was present to the many great friends that i had known over the years. they had always been supportive and encouraging, accompanying me through my ups and downs. i felt blessed to be surrounded by them and would want to deepen our friendships in the years to come. l learnt to treasure whatever i had and appreciative towards myself and the people around me. i felt warm and fuzzy in my heart.
i left the café at around 6pm to have japanese dinner with yufen and bili at nex, before ending off my birthday celebration.
this year's birthday has been amazingly perfect, a day well spent and reconnected with myself. i felt a sense of happiness and gratitude throughout the day. many thanks for all the well wishes from my friends! happy birthday to me, with many great years to come! = )
after waiting for more than a year,
mayday would be back in singapore on 15 june 2013 for their now here (诺亚方舟明日重生版) world
tour at the indoor stadium!!! they were in town last year but i was not in the
right mood to enjoy the concert then, despite getting the most expensive ticket
and standing at the second row from the stage. this year, i wanted to go and enjoy
myself thoroughly. i told coly and she was interested (she went with her friend
to last year’s concert as well)! the last time we went to mayday concert together
was in july 2009 at shanghai (entry dated 21 july 2011). a good 4 years had
passed and we were just as excited to see mayday concert together again!
the concert tickets were on sale through sistic as early as february 2013. on the first day of sale, i went to office early, getting ready to purchase the tickets online. their tickets were
known to snap up within minutes in other countries. true enough, the sistic
website was loading very slowly when i was choosing the seats and making
payment. there must be an influx of mayday fans trying to buy the
tickets at the same time, jamming up the sistic system. after a few attempts,
the payment went through and i got the tickets! what a relief! i survived another nerve breaking
experience of buying the tickets. >_<
four months passed and the concert
day finally came! coly and i met up early at the indoor stadium to get the concert stamp and redeem the light sticks. this was the first time they were giving out
light sticks for the concert. after which, we went off to catch up with each
other over dinner.
when we were back at the indoor
stadium, the crowd was gathering outside. pk came along with her friends and the
3 of us were busy taking photos together! when the concert time was nearing, we
queued to go into the indoor stadium. coly and i were seated at the balcony, getting a
bird’s eye view of the stage and seats below. the audience were gradually walking
in, filling up the seats. around 8.10pm, the lights went dimmed. the audience began
screaming and waving their light sticks. the concert was starting! a female artiste, 家家, from the same record company came on stage to perform. when the lights went dimmed again, mayday
finally took the stage! the audience went high with their continuous screaming and waving
their blue light sticks (blue was the band’s colour). they never failed to
arouse the emotions of the audience instantly!
they sang songs from their past 8
albums, a mix of classic and recent songs, fast and slow songs, as well as taiwanese songs. their classic
songs such as 温柔, 拥抱 and 爱情万岁 were just as nice even after so many years. their taiwanese songs like 轧车, 叫我第一名 and ok 啦 were authentic
and great for hyping up the audience. i was glad that they sang one of my
favourite taiwanese songs, 憨人 towards the end. i read somewhere in
the facebook that they did not sing any taiwanese songs at the previous day
concert. their fast songs like 离开地球表面 and 第一天 got us standing on our feet and
jumping to the rhythm. coly and i were singing out loud and waving our light
sticks. their slow ballads like 知足, 突然好想你 and 你不是真正的快乐 transformed
the indoor stadium into a huge ktv room, with everyone singing along with 阿信. he
was in his top form, being able to sing the high pitches of some difficult songs perfectly! powerful! he really knew how to sing! the interesting part of the concert was the light sticks which could be centrally controlled to change colours according to the mood of the songs. we could see uniformed colours of red, blue, green and yellow as well as in various colours, engaging the audience at every minute.
in the middle of the concert, each
member greeted the audience, like catching up with old friends. 冠佑 was cajoled to tell a not so funny joke with
his straight face, which nevertheless got the audience laughing away. with no exceptions, he was teased by other members this time too. hahaha!
they ended the concert with their new fast beat song, 伤心的人别听慢歌 at 11.30pm. for the past 3 ½ hours,
we let go of ourselves and immersed in a night full of fun, excitement and laughter. their songs reminded us to keep pursuing our dreams and be true to ourselves, just like them. everyone was constantly energetic and uplifting throughout the concert. although the concert ended earlier than last year, i truly enjoyed myself. great company, great band, great performance, great visual effects, great audience and great mood! thank
you, mayday! i am already looking forward to their next concert! by that time,
they might be holding the concert in the new outdoor stadium! till then, mayday
continues to rock! 摇滚万岁! = )
i remembered during my meet up with
kelvin yeo in late 2010, i shared with him about setting a theme of the year.
after attending the programmes and trainings in eci, i learnt that creating
changes in our lives would take time, effort and discipline. i decided to set a
theme for 2011, to constantly remind myself of what i wanted to
achieve at the end of the year. through eci, i realized that i was not loving
myself enough, often trying to please others at the expense of myself.
therefore, i set 2011 to be a “self love” year (s.l.y), using 1 full year to learn
to love myself.
somehow, this came true. i left my internal auditor job in 2011 and took a pause in my working
life. i finally decided to follow my heart and take a big step into the
unknown. this pause stretched over 9 months until i was hit by another sign. during
this period, i did a number of things which i always wanted to do (entry dated
23 september 2012). the break was not smooth sailing but nonetheless rewarding,
at least i gave myself a chance to fulfill what my heart desired. in the process, i definitely
learnt to love and get along better with myself.
in 2012, i set the year to be a “creation”
year as i wanted to ignite the creative juice in me. 2012 became a year of
changes, where i found a job through zhang yi, doing marketing analytics at
zalora, an e-commerce start up company. i finally switched out of audit! i was
grateful that this came along or maybe this was meant to be, as part of my
journey. i was happier and learning new things. in the end, the biggest
creation in 2012 was creating a team with kelvin yeo and zhang yi to do something
together in 2013.
for 2013, i set to be an “action”
year, a year to take action and get things
done. i must say this
is the toughest theme i have set. i am not a natural “action packed” person.
there are a lot of internal fighting within myself, having self doubts and
comparing myself with others. these internal conflicts are draining my energy,
with ups and downs, like going on an emotional roller coaster ride. there are days
where i can work and days where i just want to rest. i foresee “action” to be
the theme for the next couple of years as well, until i get comfortable being
“action packed”. although moving slowly, i must acknowledge myself for the
small steps i take each day. still a long journey ahead!
having a theme each year helps me to
stay focus and gather my intention towards achieving that. give a try to set a
theme of the year for yourself. you never know what might unfold when you set a
strong intention! before getting back to work, let me share an illustration by
a malaysian illustrator, lim heng swee, to encourage you and me. never give up! = )
the past week at work had been very hectic, making me feeling drained at the end of friday. i was emotionally and
physically tired, especially after firefighting on monday and tuesday to complete
my reports. there were continuous requests for new information to be presented that i constantly needed to build them into my reports. 1 week passed by so fast that
before i knew it, the whole work cycle would start again on the coming monday. sometimes, i felt that work was taking too much of my time, leaving me little energy for
my own stuff after work. the only thing i wanted to do when i got home was to
relax and rest.
i was listening to mayday songs while working, to cheer myself up. as i listened closely, i could strongly resonate to the lyrics of 1 song, 生存以上生活以下, written by 阿信. the song title literally
meant “above survival, below living”. he pointed out the routine
lives that people were going through day after day, year after year, just to survive. we
seemed to lose ourselves and forget how to actually
live. living was only left with breathing, eating and drinking. for the past week, i could feel the days of my life passing by just like that, spending most
of my time reacting to the demands of others. no wonder i felt tired!
luckily, i managed to regain back some energy after
meeting up with coly for lunch and zee for dinner. i needed to break away from my daily work routine. my weekends were rejuvenating when i got connected with my mastermind
groups, went swimming and wrote this entry. doing the things i enjoyed definitely uplifted my mood to prepare for
the coming week! i shall keep on fighting!!! >_<
one morning as usual, i was browsing
through the newspapers and saw an advertisement by the national arts council, featuring the writers for the singapore writers festival (swf)
2012. i did not take much notice and continue flipping through, until i
recall a familiar face. i flipped back to the advertisement to confirm. oh my
gosh! my favorite taiwanese illustrator, 幾米 was among the writers featured to speak at the
swf 2012! i always enjoyed his illustrations and bought a number of his illustration books. he would be speaking at 2 swf events on 10 and 11 november 2012. i must get the swf ticket!
i waited for the fateful day to
come, bringing along a few of my favorite illustration books for his autographs.
i arrived early at the event hall and while walking to the washroom, i saw 幾米 sitting alongside the walkway with his
assistant. wow wow wow! i saw him so up close in person! when i came out of the washroom, his
readers were surrounding him, requesting for his autographs and taking photos
with him. when he was about to leave for the event hall, i grabbed the chance to
ask for a photo with him. he acceded to my request and the event host kindly
helped to take the photo. i thanked both of them and we went into the event
hall. ahhhhh!!! never imagined that i would have a photo with 幾米!!!
this session was themed “finding the
child in me”. the 3 children book authors, including 幾米, shared about how they retained
their childlike innocence through observations and interactions with children,
gaining inspirations for their creative works. although i was unfamiliar with the other 2 children book authors, i enjoyed their stories nonetheless.
the next day was the “meet the
author” session, solely by 幾米. the event hall was so crowded with people that many ended up sitting on
the carpet or standing around. this was definitely a rare occasion for his
readers to meet him. the session began with a short animated film, adapted from his first
illustration book, 微笑的鱼. after a brief introduction by the host, 幾米 came on stage with loud applause from the
audience. he shared about how he started his illustrating work and what
led him to publish his illustration books. he was naturally shy yet proud of his own works. the audience was amused by his stories and laughing away. the climax of the session was when he began reciting his latest illustration book, 时光电影院. this
illustration book was his way of paying tribute to movies. the event hall
became silent as he recited with his gentle and compassionate voice. everyone was
listening attentively and following the illustrations projected on the big
screen. somehow, he could draw the audience into his story, as if we were part of the
story, feeling what the characters were feeling. the audience gave a big round
of applause when he finished. we wanted to listen to more. at our request, he
recited another illustration book, 星空, dedicated to teenagers, who might feel
lost in this big world during their teenage years. he hoped that through this book,
they could find comfort and strength to face the ups and downs in life bravely. he was
choking with emotions as he read on. 星空 was one of my favorites and i was
tearing as i listened. i would not be so emotional if i were to read the book
myself. his illustrations and words painted a beautiful story and listening to
him made the story even more touching. for a story to touch others, the story
must first touch the author. he is one such author. he seemed to understand and touch a small part of our inner worlds through his illustrations.
i did an act of courage during the questions and answers segment. my heart was
thumping hard when i stood up to ask him whether there would be a possibility to
bring the exhibitions based on his illustrations into singapore. he answered, not
likely, mainly due to the big scale of logistics
and constraints of funding and manpower. i was wishfully thinking that if i became
successful and wealthy one day, i could accomplish that, letting more people see
and appreciate his works. then again, i could just fly over to taiwan to see
the exhibitions! hahaha!
i managed to get his autographs on 6 copies of the illustration books that i brought. i planned to give 1 copy each to zhang yi and jada
as they liked his illustrations as well. i could not wait to see their
expressions when they receive the books! having to meet my favorite
illustrator was exhilarating and taking a photo with him was definitely a big big big bonus! another
item crossed on my wish list! yeah!!!
i look forward to more awe-inspiring creations from
him! = )
one of my 2012 resolutions was to
read 15 solid books, which i gladly exceeded by completing 21 books! hahaha!
well done! i always enjoy reading, gaining new knowledge from different authors and being inspired by them through their words. here
are my 21 books!
1.the
solitaire mystery – jostien gaarder
2.the
winner take all society – robert h. frank and philip j. cook
3.thank
you for firing me – kitty martini and candice reed
4.52
productivity principles for getting things done – david allen
5.think
and grow rich – napoleon hill
6.the
hitchhiker’s guide to the galaxy – douglas adams
7.the
restaurant at the end of the universe – douglas adams
8.take
off @ 2359 起飞– 吴庆康
9.touch
down @ 2359 降落– 吴庆康
10.on
board @ 2359 翱翔– 吴庆康
11.cancer
cured naturally – betty l khoo-kingsley
12.lord
of the flies – william golding
13.secrets
of a millionaire mind – t. harv eker
14.the 7 habits of highly effective people – stephen r. covey
15.speed
wealth – t. harv eker
16.the
cashflow quadrant – robert kiyosaki
17.the
e myth revisited – michael e. gerber
18.value
investing for employees – clive tan
19.五月天的素人自拍– 五月天
20.时光电影院– 幾米
21.拥抱– 幾米
out of these books, there are a
number worth mentioning:
1.the solitaire mystery
this book is written by the same author of sophie’s
world, recommended by dai xing. indeed an enchanting, philosophical and
conscious novel! i enjoyed the twists in the story plot, engaging me every minute!
there is a story within a story which keeps me reading and reading. highly
recommended!
the solitaire mystery
2.2359 series
these 3 books are compilations of existing and new articles written by my favorite local writer, 吴庆康, released in late 2011. he has a
column in the newspapers which publishes every wednesday. i have been reading
his articles for the past 10 over years. times flies! once every few years, he compiles
his articles into books. he shares a lot of his personal experiences, especially
his travels and his perspectives over various issues. i have a wide collection
of his books and feels like i have seen him ‘grow’ as his writing style changes
over the years.
take off @ 2359 起飞 on board @2359 翱翔
touch down @ 2359 降落
3.secrets of the millionaire mind
kelvin yeo created an investment mastermind
group with me and silvia, where we focus on working on our finances and learn about
investments from one another. our ultimate aim is to achieve financial freedom.
this book is our 1st reading book, recommended by kelvin yeo. from the
author's personal experiences, he introduces new perspectives about money and teaches
simple methods to manage money. there is a 3-day millionaire mind intensive seminar
which puts the theory into practice. i missed the seminar in 2011 and was glad to
go with them last year. i was impressed by the speaker and learnt a lot during the
3 days. the book and the seminar open up my mindset towards money, where i am becoming more
driven to achieve my financial freedom. i continue to implement the methods
taught and cultivate good money management habits. this year, we are moving on
to learn about investments. one step closer to financial freedom!an easy to read beginner’s book for people
who are serious about achieving financial freedom.
secrets of the millionaire mind
4.the 7 habits of highly effective people
i have long heard about this book, but
only managed to read it in 2012 when a few friends were recommending. sadly,
the author passed away on 16 july 2012, leaving a legacy through the books he wrote.
the book is written in simple and understandable manner but with profound
knowledge to learn and apply. i am cultivating the 7 habits in my daily life
and finding them very useful. highly recommended!
the 7 habits of highly effective people
5.the e myth revisited
never expected this book could be so interesting!
the author shares knowledge on what an entrepreneur should take note in a
business. a must read for people who are planning to set up their own
businesses. a conscious book in business sense.
the e myth revisited
6.五月天的素人自拍
this is the 1st book written by
mayday in 2001 and republished in 2012. this book was documented during the
period when they were producing their 3rd music album, 人生海海 and facing
temporary disbandment as some members needed to serve the army. wow! through
this book, i have a deeper understanding of my favorite band, of how they got
to know one another in high school, how mayday was formed, how they produced
their music, how they got into rock records and how they became famous
from then on. their dedication to music inspires me and even now, they are
still pursuing their music dream, living their lives with passion. my role
models!
五月天的素人自拍
7.拥抱
this book is a christmas gift from jada! she knows
that i love 幾米books. i had a
pleasant surprise when i saw 幾米autograph on the 1st page of the
book! i thought she had gone to get his autograph. instead, she told me that
she just picked the book from the bookshelf. hahaha! she had lucky hand! i am happy
to have another autographed book! coincidentally, i also gave her a 幾米autographed book, 星空. i got the book signed when the illustrator was in town for
the singapore writers festival in november 2012.
拥抱
these are the highlights of the books which i have read. i hope you will enjoy these
books as much as i do! gearing up for more great books in 2013! = )